do you even know;

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

i've moved.

if you dont know my link, too bad for you(:

BUT

you'll definitely know sooner or later la.

| amerie fought for sanity @ 9:41 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

Monday, October 02, 2006

Why is it that all i'm ever thinking of is you?

let's see what happened today. today was laugh at ANNABELLE day. guess what, she was abnormally BLUR today. haaa. let's see.

during lit, as we're doing a play, there's roleplaying. so there was one line that said:

EVERYONE: Skol, doctor!

so mrs tan read it out and annabelle being blur,

annabelle: SKOL.....(looks around, no one else is saying) ehh...
me: you're not supposed to read la!

goodness, mrs tan was just reading off the book, not asking EVERYONE to read! tskk. omg. ha.

THEN,

mrs tan sidetracked and looked out of the window saying the air is very bad. then she asked those with asthma if their asthma acts up nowadays. then she asked michelle if her's does then michelle said no. then mrs tan said then her's is not asthma then. then mrs tan asked again," is yours asthma?" meanwhile,

annabelle: huh? what act smart?
me: asthma la!
MRS TAN: what did you hear as annabelle?
me: she heard as ACT SMART. hahaha
MRS TAN: is yours act smart? how does that sound right?
annabelle: i heard asthma LAH!
me: yea, i'm sure(:

then we took down notes for sense of belonging. and annabelle wrote SAMPHIRE as SANDFIRE.

choiling: annabelle! it's samphire NOT sandfire la!
annabelle: oh quick! change change change! dont show anyone! dont let anyone see! hurry!!

hilarious!

then mrs tan gave us 2 free periods for self-revision. then choi, belle, carol and started role playing. hahaha. we read read read and came to one page which had this guy called Aslaksen and no one knew how to pronounce it but TRIED hard anyway. but then choi gave up and read the line as..

"shhh. not so loud, WHATEVER'S inside." it was supposed to be: "shhh. not so loud, Aslaksen's inside"

hahahahahaa. funny laa. okay..maybe i just have a weird sense of humour. oh whatever!

so then ate at MOS with lynn...la dee dah. then homed. got pissed cause my mum wouldnt let me tudy at eunice's house. oh wth la! saying i use that as an excuse to get out of the house!? i really dont understand SS la. cockanathan. after tht didnt really have the mood to study alr. wah lao. spoil my whole mood. chicken nuggets. RAHH- oh wells. i'm just emo. yes, i'm emo everyday. i guess it's true. guess what? why dont you change that for me?

as i was walking along the pathway blasting music into my ears,
i looked up and saw a figure,
i hoped and i wished that it was you,
the figure was blur from afar,
then i heard a voice,
as the figure neared,
i knew my head was playing games with me.

// unrequited love never felt so good

| amerie fought for sanity @ 4:57 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

Sunday, October 01, 2006

If you were mine,

okay. today was alright. nth much but..sleeping? ahh damn. amerie, you need to start studying you know! AHHHHHH ):

i'm getting really emo-fied. and it stinks. but you see, there's nth i really can do about it. i'm just too concerned abt matters of the heart. but you see, i shoudlnt really bother right? not like bothering would make a diff anyway.

im wondering what i'll be doing after the exams.

damn. gtg.

| amerie fought for sanity @ 6:58 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

Saturday, September 30, 2006

hahaha. just came to gen's house to meet my parents a while ago. OMGoodness. just now was uber fun. (: we went for the exam mass then off the punggol park! haha. we waited at the bus stop for dion, but we girls didnt wanna wait, so we boarded the bus first with martin.

in the bus...

MARTIN: omg, the guys abandoned me
ME, VAL, GWEN, DENYSE: you just realised? hahahahahaha.

then a while later we see all the guys running after the damn bus! omg. then we pledaed the uncle to stop the bus. he alr wanted t move off at first. then val kept pressing the stop button. hahah. oh gosh. i tell you super hilarious and brandon almost got left behind. SUPER SLOW la that guy. hahaha. then when they boarded the bus, the uncle muttered unkind words under his breath. GOSH. sorry la uncle.. haha. then the story was tht, when dion came, the bus JUST left so they decided to run after the bus, and they made it! first to come in was rico,then berwin, caleb then..brandon. HAHA.

then reached punggol park, went over the 401 there to buy laterns, candles, lighter and drinks. (: super funny. let's skip to the intersting parts :D

the guys scraped the sparkler thing into a cup and set it on fire then it started sparking up. SO COOL i tell you (: hahahaha. then we threw the lighter into the fire after that then there was an explosion! haha.so fun. (: haha.

i need to rush off now. (:

// i love you!!

| amerie fought for sanity @ 11:26 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

Friday, September 29, 2006

loving a person is not perfect, it's only human

there's this song tht's stuck in my head. so irritating. i keep asking my bro and sis what's the title they say it's called uh oh....just cause it's starts with UH OH!? and the song keeps playing in the show and stops at the word uh oh. OMG! i wanna know tht song! HELP?!

ohhhhhhh! i found the song alr! it's called i'll never leave you! haha. so funny. i'm so happy! hahaha. :DD

today was english paper. summary was lame. what kind of a country is named zulu, ludan and beirut!? sounds so fuuny. and the invigilator was EVEN funnier! haha.his name is TEO. haha. collection of papers was damn retarded. whole class burst out laughing. HAHA.

JY holds paper up high in the air,
TEO: dont hold so high!

BRIDGET holds it super high, then super low not allowing him to take,
TEO: give it to me! (in low voice)
BRIDGET imitating his voice: orh.okay.

and behind me was QUEEN making noise about him saying he wears his pants so high all. then she kept complaining abt him. saying he's irriating all! ahaha. he really is! then when ppl ask him if we supposed to detach the cover page he say wait arh i go check..and he continues collecting the papers!? haha. wtheck. hilarious. and he only allowed ppl to go toilet for three minutes. haha. QUEEN kept laughing at him. haha. so loud somemore.

today school ended at 210pm. cause of some talk thingg. CURSES to those ppl who tarnished IJ school's name. come on okay. tskk. how could you all. i shake my head. seriously, it's cause of OBVIOUS reasons why ppl say theses kinda things abt IJ schools. maybe the IJ board should limit the kinda ppl that enter our school! sheezus!

enough of that. hurr. i realised tht i keep blogging long post nowadays. and it's all crap. wna know why? cause i FEEL like crap. everything to me IS crap. well, not really. i just HAD TO say that. as you read this paragraph, you'd realise that this is ACTUALLY really a load of crap. nothing but pure genuine crap. uh huh, you'd tend to go on reading this and start smiling to yourself like an idiot as if someone just told you a super hilarious joke WHICH most likely would be associated as crap. (: this para has not ended yet as i've not finishd crapping. ppl who read crappy things and write crappy things ARE NOT crappy. heheheheheheh. is that true? i dont know cause all of this is JUST crap. thank you for your crappy attention ((: haha.

oh mann. what's wrong with me? i can be happy all of a sudden and sad the other. why am i like that ah? i really wna know. can anyone tell me the answer? does anyone even know? omgoodness.

i've discovered many bruises on me. and i have no idea where they've come from. and i keep biting myself whenever i'm eating. it's not cause i'm heaty or whatever. i dont know why. do you? well, acutally i do. it's maybe cause i was too busy concentrating on YOU(not you,the one reading but my special someone whom doesnt know).

i got to mug hard. :DD reminds me of recess. haha.

why is it everything i do, you dont wanna believe it's true,
but everything she does, it means the world to you?
i caught you watching her,
you think i dont know.

tmr is exam prayer. cant wait. i miss val mentee loads! cant wait to mug with her tmr(: yayy! heh. i love her many.

"behind some doors, ppl are waiting to sparkle" this quote came from the confessions of the teenage drama queen.

would you pls stop cutting yourself. what's the point of it? i alr told you to stop it yet you still continued. why must you do that? i told you very nicely alright. stop it, will you? just stop it. it's ridiculous. your arm is full of scars, nice? i think not. please, think abt the ppl who care. dont hurt them just cause you're hurting. deal with the hurt inside rather than hurt yourself physically. i just care, cant you understand that...forget it. ~~my words dont mean a thing to your ears anyway.~~

// i stood there screaming for you but there wasn't a sound coming out

| amerie fought for sanity @ 6:12 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

Thursday, September 28, 2006

YOU CHANGED MY WORLD
THE MOMENT I SAW YOU

today was great(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEEN and CRISTALBELLE! :DD

morning, woke up at 0625hrs. so tired. thanks to ANNABELLE LEONG la! make us wait up to wish her and she slept in the end. TSK! had to wake up early to get presents from theresa. omg i tell you, i thought her house was near. was perspiring like hell when i reached school. haha. anyway, i was so nice to go meet her and the presents for annabelle okay! haha. annabelle, you better be happy! haha. all this was planned without annabelle knowing. heh. we were so good at surprising her today....

so firstly, i hid the stuff with BEST first. then caroline passed her the green tea bottle after assembly. should've seen the shocked look on her face!! haha :D then headed to maths class put one present in each of our bags. then i handed the EMPTY paper bag to annabelle.

ME: ehh.this is for you. happy birthday. (:
ANNABELLE huh look: what the hell. thanks ah.
ME impromptu: no laa...without you, our lives would be empty like this paper bag"
ANNABELLE: AWWWWWWWWWWW. ((((:

then, maths, choi passed her the BIN BIN! ahaha.

ANNABELLE: where you guys get all this from? who meet one!?
WE: aiyoh...how we know!

then, second period of chinese, lydia passed the piglet. AGAIN, annabelle was giving the OMG face. ahaha.

ANNABELLE: ehh..you tell me how you get laaa. i wont say you told me.
ME: I REALLY DONT KNOW LA!!!!
ANNABELLE: dont lie! i know you're the MASTER MIND.
ME: your head la!! *changes topic* ehh..the piglet so cute...I SEE. hurr.

and between this time, she was complaining how come we didnt have a card for her..i was like cause it's your bday and you're the one tht's always making the cards for us...? hahahah. what an actor i am! (((:

then, RECESS! that was the best.

ate, waited for choi and sauyan to return. caroline asked annabelle to go to the toilet. then pretend sit in cubicle for super long. then, the rest of us in the canteen were rushing to prepare the cake and all. haha. then i went to give the signal, "EHH. why you guys so long!!!!! hurry come back laa.. we gg class alr." annabelle SCOLDED me LA! tsk. say i unreasonable due to some reasons(which were not even true). RAHH- unappreciative! haha. then as they were walking back, we started singing.....then annabelle was shocked yet AGAIN.

ANNABELLE: awwww...i feel so loved!

hold on, we were still full of surprises for her, with the remaining 4 presents and our flowers. so, someone covered her eyes and we took out our flowers. 5 roses, 1 sunflower and the fake rose. so each of us passed her the roses and sauyan passed her the sunflower and caroline passed her the fake rose saying " we'll love you till the last petal falls" ((: heh. super fun laa.

then headed to SS class. MISS YEO wasnt around. so we took photos. (: ahha. emo emo all. ahahah. then 12pm alethea passed her the soap. heh. nice smell la. heh. REALLY VERY NICE. then more and more photos.

then after maths at 1pm i passed her the hershey's kisses. annabelle still wondering... haha.
then 2pm sauyan passed her the last present.. POWDER. haha. sweet smelling BABY powder. heh. then.........this was the time when annabelle found out how we got the presents, when i passed her theresa's letter. haha.

ME: queen! come here. i got something for you. *passes letter
ANNABELLE: *opens letter OH!!!!! now i know! haha.
ME: yeahhhh. NOW YOU KNOW. haha.

goodness. super funny la. most successful birthday this year. haha. cause belle is SO BLUR laa. ahah. love you queen! happy bday again. promise you i wont be emo TODAY...guess what? it's ending soon. heh :D

i slammed the table against the wall today and kept punching the wall thanks to C as i was alr super emo!! ~~sickenning piece of pi sai.~~

// why is it when you love someone, the someone dont love you back?

| amerie fought for sanity @ 9:11 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

| amerie fought for sanity @ 8:33 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

I WANT TO BE YOURS,
NOT BEHIND CLOSE DOORS,
BABY; COME TO ME

today was funny. after school went home got the biscuits then went to compass. popular-ed. ahah. alethea left her biscuit tin at the bookshelf! damn funny la! the guy was like staring when she went back to take it. haha. then i went down to macs to find ryl, sng and all. then sat with them. ate. then talked a while. then wing and ryl were playing this racing game. oh my god! EXPLICIT.

ryl: wing, where is your car(sounds like the dialect for leg)?
wing: at your rear!!! *giggles
ryl: oh okay. NO, you're in my front now!
wing: yeahhh! i'm in the front of you.
ryl: *giggles
then they giggle and giggle. OMG la!

me and sng were SHOCKED (:
jamie was happily studying.
then liz came and we headed to SKCC. studied a while. then homed.

ONE MORE DAY TO THE BELLE'S BIRTHDAY! :D

// i love you, dont you know?

i dont understand you la. seriously, i dont even know why you bother even waiting for her when she's not worth of your love. it's redundant. she's such an asshole. such a disgrace to us, butches. we aren't as mean as her la. wait, why do i even care abt this huh. fuck it alright. i just wna be nice and tell you to ignore her. you're just making her feel WANTED. she's like telling everyone that you cant live without her. dont amke yourself sound so despo. it's dumb. fuck forget it. i shouldnt bother anyway. but....i still care. oh whatever.
stop,look,turn away.

| amerie fought for sanity @ 9:08 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me