Monday, October 10, 2005

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okay.
so today was the first of our three papers left.
YAYNESS.
but then again.
things arent going well.ARE THEY?
lemme see.
science was shit lar.
bio.
gosh.
BIO!
man.
but considering i dint study MUCH,it was alrights lar. (i admit i dint study okay)
what if i flunk my EOY?
i'm goona DIE.
DIE i tell you DIE.
i might as well just end it now RIGHT?
man.
why must things be so difficult huh?
the GODAMN HELL WHY!!!!
can anyone, just anyone.
tell me why ppl in love cannot have their own problems?
do you ppl not see that when you're in love, you can have your own problems too?!
i don get it.
dang.
you ppl have no idea what's going thru my mind now.
REALLY.


that cold,metal blade lying there on the table.
I,so tempted to touch it again and slice my skin.
watch the blood flow thru the slits.
carefully and slowly,
the blood drips.
there is no pain.
just all the problems flowing out.
no one will stop me.
UNLESS.
you have what it takes.
i'll wait till the scars heal,
to re-open it again.
that's when i'll know,
the scars are REAL.

damn.
amerie,
why are you feeling this way?
you don have to,do you?
WHY WHY WHY.
ergh.
screw this.
i'm gonna hibernate.
and hide away from this reality.


you dont know how much i love you.





| amerie fought for sanity @ 7:09 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me