Wednesday, November 02, 2005

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so let's see.
i'm in the mood for blogging depressing stuff again.
oh well.
what can i say huh.
ppl around me are depressed.
i get affected.
it's chain reaction.
WHATEVER lar.
yuck.
i hate hate HATE that word.
i'm sorry lar.
i feel like ranting and ranting.
BUT
i don think i have a proper reason to.
argh.
i just feel so choked up with everything.
things are moving too fast.
i aint enjoying it.
people are thinking of what they are gonna be in the future.
here i am sitting and just wasting my life away.
look at my grades.
i cant be what i wanna be.
wait.
i don even KNOW what i wanna be.
listening to my friends talking about what they're gonna do about their lives.
i just try my best and fit in.
but then agn.
what's the point of living this life in fucking pretence?
argh.
things wouldnt be like this.
if
i
did
not
get
onto
the
wrong
track.right?
BUT
i am not regretting anything.cos like i told sam,i don want anything.
i'm satisfied with what i have.NO REGRETS.
but now,
i just wish that i can do something better with my life.
i don wanna start thinking of suicidal thoughts anymore.
cut,cut,cut.
blood,blood,blood.
the sight is nice.
but it's plain self-amusement.
why not,
just end life by jumping down or something since you're so depressed???
arhhhh.i'm not pin-pointing this to anyone really.
it's just my thoughts running wild.
i'm going out of my mind.
reality is too much for me.
ARGH.
forget it.
i have no idea WHAT I JUST BLOGGED.
ignore it.....BLAH.


what i want for christmas:
ZEN MICRO
SHOES
NEW HANDPHONE
LAPTOP
CLOTHES
MONEY.LOTS AND LOTS OF IT.

how nice it would be to walk down orchard with your loved one during xmas huh?
the lights.
oh so beautiful.

okay.
i'm gonna cheer up now.
lala.
man.
it's the mood swings.
my head is spinning.
damn.
i'm weird.
don mind me.
lalala.
okay.
i'm gonna blog something.
here goes.
MINPEI! (= i love love love you! MR MISS MISS.
nice enough?
hahaha.
okay.
bye ppl.


| amerie fought for sanity @ 10:19 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me