Sunday, December 11, 2005
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i told you id be back.hmmm.i slept for like 1 and a half hrs.not exactly 1 and a half hrs cos every like 20-25min i kept waking up to check the handphone.well...i wasnt surprised lar.no reply.well.i don really know what to say next.cos it's just like i'm in the dark for everything.and i mean EVERYTHING.ever since.ever since..then,i've stopped thinking.you know...like putting my life in deep deep thought.i guess i was too preoccupied with stuff of my own that i totally put the world behind me.my whole mind filled with question marks.filled with fear.filled with anger.filled with hate.filled with pain.filled with REGRET.but now im choosing the better way of life.put the memories where it belongs : the past.yesyes.i knw i sound like some freak who is god damn irritated right?well.i don really wna post this shit here but ive got no other choice lar.i don wanna put my burden onto other's shoulders.its just too painful for them tobar the grief.right?and to you*,i seriously have no idea what you're doing now.no call,no msg,no nth.things have kinda changed around me.ever since you went away.and now that youre back,things are like this, i feel even more insecure.maybe its my fault.im sorry.oh mann.i need a break!everything is moving so fast.TOO FAST.i cant catch up.not a single bit.help!im falling.okay.i'm being a little bit retarded here.i don wanna put all you readers out there into a bad mood.hahaha.i'm just gonna move on in life.like i said put the memories behind.think of the present and the future.i'm happy with what i currently have..and that means EVERYTHING.yes.most happy to have all my friends around me. (=and my oh-so lovely baby. =DDaiight.i'll stop here.till then`;AMERIE
| amerie fought for sanity @ 10:16 PM|
&i wonder if you ever loved me
