Friday, December 16, 2005

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MIND'S IN A WHIRL

im starting to have heavy moodswings again.
don ask me why.
i just do.
my head hurts.
seriously.
what's happening to me mann.
well...
i think im just pmsing.
like whatever okay.
the song because of you is just so RIGHT for this kinda mood i am in now!
omg.
"because of you i nvr stray too far from the sidewalks......blahdeblahhhhh"

i love you too much to even let you go.
i dont wish anything to happen anymore.
it hurts me to see you sad,it breaks my frickin heart.
you're like this part of me,
without you, i just cant function.
i picked you to be that special someone.
that someone who did the smallest simplest things just to attract me and get all hyped up about.
and you still do.
that day,
it almost ended..
the feeling like a knife being pierce thru me over and over again.
i dont wish to see that happen ever again.
but now,
i don even get a call,not even an sms from you.
is it you're too busy or youre just plain pissed at what i had said.
i dint mean a thing, i swear.
im just really sorry.
i dont know how to keep up with your constant temperamental swings.
it just shuts me up that i have nth to say anymore.
i dont even know how to react.
why is it like that?
im so very sure that i still love you.
i love you so much that its just so hard to get you off my mind.
every single hour, i think of you.
i just HAVE TO mention you to someone you know.
and rattle on how much you're so great.
and how much you mean to me.
and how much i dont want this to end.
i could go on forever about why i fell for you.
but it'll probably crash someone's comp for the blog post would be toooo long.tooooooooo long to absorb.
but to put it in the most simplest ways,
no one could make me any happier.
no one could make me feel so real like how you do.
no one i could love more.
no one i could miss so much.
no one that swept me off my feet like you did.
and there's NO ONE as great as you.
and that's so far what im saying and thinking.
BUT
if one day, you really want me to leave you, just tell me.ill leave.but ill continue to make you happy.at least ill try my best.


okay...
today was not very much of a great day.
i dint do anything.
woke up.
lunched and homed.
that's bout it.
well.
anything's better than nothing.
im off..

`till then
;AMERIEEE






| amerie fought for sanity @ 7:09 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me