Sunday, January 01, 2006

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okay.

i guess the new year spirit died down in a matter of...erm.....10min? righteous.im feeling like crap now.i know i shouldnt.and i promised nic i wouldnt be emo and all on NEW YEAR.but still.its just comes back to point where.im fallen HARD.yes.vey hard indeed.the truth hurts.it hurts so bad that i just do not know what to do anymore.oh hell yeah..it hurts.im like just saying over and over again it hurts.i dont ever think ill fall in love again.my heart will just remain with one person.mmhmm.one person that just really meant alot to me. "2005 was a blast but you dont know what 2006 will bringso HAPPY NEW YEAR!" that doesnt seem to apply to me does it? not like i have anything to look forward too.oh mann.this is just a heap of rubbish i've been waiting to say.oh damn.im getting soooooo emo.TOO EMO. i tell you peeps what,i threw my ring across the room and i knew i'll find it cos my heart knew where it was.see..EMO EMO EMO! argh. help. help. help.ill just return to my OLD USUAL SELF.im in the BACHELOR's CLUB with maddy and bestie.is it a good thing.im in a different situation as them.VERY DIFFERENT.how fast things come and go.i'd treasure that relationship.it was the best so far.but it had to end this way.someone tells me it's just temporary.everythiing will be fine soon.sheesh! i hope so.i really do.

it's just great how the year ended this way.all crap.CRAP.CRAP.im feeling like SHIT.my head is so heavy.the more i blog the more ill feel hurt and lost and lonely.okay.ill stop ill stop here.NOW.NOW NOW.

all i have to say is im nvr gonna be in love with anyone anymore.my heart is always with her and will always be.nth will change it.not even TIME.


till then`



| amerie fought for sanity @ 12:34 AM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me