Thursday, February 16, 2006

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i feel like the biggest fool ever.
i dont know why,
but i just do.
you've slipped off my grip.
no longer mine.
you'll be leaving ANYTIME.
i know very well i still do love you.
anyone can tell.
but i know that im your past.
you're nvr gonna come back.
maybe you're right,
we just dont trust each other enough.
but why.
why must there always be others in the picture.
why cant it just be me and you?
im listening to the rainbow connection songs.
those were the days huh.
i cant hold those tears back.
i feel so emo all of a sudden.
i always was from the day you said we'd be friends.
there are so many what IFs in my mind.
WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF.
but i guess it's too late now.
no one understands how i feel.
even if i wanted to go back,
you'd not return.
you said you rather stay as friends,
if that makes you happy.then okay.im fine with it.
but if you ever wanna return,
im always here.
TRUE LOVE LASTS.
at least i know i love you.
you mean too much,
remaining as friends is just a waste.
at least that's what i think.
around my friends,
i fucking dont give a shit.
but when im back home,
i start to think of you.
i choke on my tears.
but they eventually still drip from my eyes.
no one ever made me cry this much before.
you said not to blame you if you leave,
then i wont.
cos i am to blame.
it's my OWN FUCKING FAULT.

i cry as i type away,
i cry as i rant away,
i cry as i watch you SLOWLY leaving.


| amerie fought for sanity @ 8:41 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me