Saturday, February 04, 2006
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i keep listening to many different songs man.and i notice my mood swinging to them.now the song playing is lao shu ai da mi.hmmm.coolness.reminds me of something.or rather someone.and surprisingly,my mind suddenly hurts.im still confused.i dont want this anymore.i should just get away from them.i mean GIRLY GIRLS.
many questions running thru my head.i've yet to make the decision.either way,i'll be the bad guy.so.wht to do.do YOU,person reading this, know what to do? I DONT.ergh.if i want my valentine to be
HER,the other
HER would be hurt.and if i choose
HER,the other
HER would be hurt.blah.i should go fuck myself.i feel like such an ass.i dont have to do this.i dont.why did i even start.
WHY CANT I HAVE BOTH?
there's this song called notice me.its friggin nice i swear.it explains simply everything.i cant hold my tears back when i listen to it.ahhhh.dang!
NOTICE ME(I wanna let you know that I'll always love you baby..)
Sometimes I think about everything that we've been through (come on)
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
I love you (I love you too, girl)
And I need you (And I need you too)
So please dont throw our love away...
(Forget me, girl)
Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must of been the first kiss, you told me that
Nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too, but nothing stays the same
Im sorry for the tears Im sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets just kiss and say good bye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain to seein' you cry..
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
All that is mine is yours thats what I said
Treat you with love and respect in every way
You want it I gave you, you need me I was there
Now you treat me like if Im not here
I loved you I need you, dont wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more, I feel Im dyin inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared
So if you wake up one morning and Im not there
Just rembemer I loved you, it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I gave you my good and my bad, my heart and my soul
My trust, my money, my time, what more could you ask
From a man even when times were hard I held out my arms
And held you and even accepted you through whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I gotta let go nights like this
I wish rain drops would fall to cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years of loving someone
Who couldnt love me back and now again
I gotta start from scratch but I know
I've given you my everything
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
uh huh.nice song aint it?yes.ahhhhhhhhhhhh.freak.
im starting to think.....what IF i actually DO like her..and i just agreed to go back to you cos i couldnt stand your reasoning and for the sake of not hurting you i just made my decision.uh huh.somehow.that's what i REALLY think.
SCREW THIS.
| amerie fought for sanity @ 2:15 PM|
&i wonder if you ever loved me
