Sunday, April 02, 2006

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ever felt that you regret doign something so much but you cant do anything to change the fact that it has alr happened?man.i hate this feeling.why must i do things that i know is wrong and disappointing yet i still do it?why am i like that?i can be happy all of a sudden,then the next im sitting at the corner of my bedroom crying to myself.and no one knows.theres seriously something wrong with me but i just dont know what.i dont know what my problem is.but there's just this barrier in my mind that allows me frm thinking straight nowadays.i think its the lack of sleep or something.why is it when you have somethign so great,you dont treasure it but when its gone you want it back so much.so many things are taken for granted.like how i take you for granted.you're the greatest gift that has ever happened to me and yet,i have to throw it all away.why am i so dumb.tell me WHY!?ive gone too far this time.i hate myself.if im not forgiven,im gonna hat emyself forever.this is just so not worth it.DAMMIT.


sitting at the corner of the bedroom floor,
after the slammed door,
silent cries,
swollen eyes,
nobody knows.


| amerie fought for sanity @ 8:15 PM|

&i wonder if you ever loved me